Dear Shahl.....

As I begin this letter, I could cite out my heart to be the heaviest one, which has couple of guilt of losing the courier, the one which you dispatched going out of the way. It is more or less an ordeal for me missing something which you posted, the which comprised of few cards on two important eve's V day and my B'day which is likely to fall this month end. Such, hard and diligent work of yours going astray is really shameful for me, missing that incredible drawn sketch, those impressions of yours on those cards and some awesome messages especially jotted down for me, which would had made my several days to come. Alas! Nothing could be done except expressing our distress to this fiasco, we really can't undo things, after all life has no retake, and that's the only difference between real life and reel life.

I know you are least bothered to hear or read such long encyclopedia, me describing tons of irrelevant stuffs, rather expressing the moot thing which you really look forward to find in my letters. But unfortunately a lover boy has a dearth of this skill to unveil the spectrum of love & affection as you expect. But no harm in trying, what do you say dear ? okay, let me give a try. You know Shahl, this afternoon when I entered into the world of sleep I could see you coming into my dreams. I could see both of us in some fragrant garden, just at the midst of cluster of the most beautiful flower with sun shinning at the back, it's heat really comforts us as it does in the chilling winter, with green grass enveloped the land where you are seen standing. And yeah! & you seems to be the most gorgeous person as usual I could see you in pink robe, with radiant face, a persona which had the blend of everything. Seen moving with eyes at the entrance, and often glancing at your wrist watch as if pretty inquisitive to see your Mr. Right. The more unease & desperate you were seen the more beauty kept adding on your persona. Just then when you were about to give up your anticipation. I appeared walking in haste with little bouquet in my hand holding with my right hand but my hands seen going back as if face though multiplied the gleam on it but you pretended to lose your anger for this unfortunate delay. I pleaded for a while and you just got delighted seeing those stunning flowers. And soon giggling & smiling thus emerging the most happiest & gorgeous lass on this planet. You know Shahl, you anger for a while and soon turning up to be a happy person reflects your brittle nature, that though you sound at your outer layer but within you are too soft, so your hardness is mere superficial, its just like a glass which sounds hard though, but shatters the moment it falls down. So you being brittle sound hard or rather rough though seldom, but soon your anger or hardness perishes when comes under the contact of a stress or pressure of love and affection especially when its applied by myself.
Soon after you rose up with giggle & laughter I requested you to accept those flowers but I had my own style of presenting them to you. I knee led down got your hand, kissed it and then forwarded those flowers composed into a bouquet with both hands. And at your end you just collected them as if you were too eager to get it from me & then gave your hand to life me up. And soon we were seen walking with hand in hand for a small stroll. The atmosphere around you were the most important & striking source of making thins around fragrant. Soon our stroll followed us to a beautiful lake where we found stairs to sit and chat for long right in the midst of mother nature.
You know Shahl, to be honest the above dreams which I narrated was nothing but fictitious but yeah I had planned all such moments we time and again have them in our life. The dreams weaved would inshallah turn into reality when we came together, soon our tryst forever would certainly witness such loads of events in our life whose memories we would often cherish.
Perhaps, this arbit story might have quenched your thirst to certain extent as you had been expecting such letters from me the day we fall in love with each other. Everytime you received my letter , after reading them you were genuine in cursing me for being so incompetent in jotting down such letters. Anyway, hopefully thi would suffice to some extent though it's too little too late for my Shahl to get this piece.

Love is in air...

Love seems to be in air as this day happens to be Valentine's day. I have never been it's advocate though, but change in life is the most constant factor, this time I discover myself to be in different mood for obvious reasons. Yeah ! absolutely correct, Shahl is in my life who has made things around me the most fragrant and beautiful. As I jot down something I am all together in different mood, which has much to speak about my feelings & emotional attachment with Shahl. Today being V day the color theme at my office is red, hence i have groomed myself in light red color shirt, clowned in a fragrant deodorant, face properly done, etc. Roses, balloons & ribbons, message board, song requests & coffee breaks are all the activities to be witnessed around me. But at the midst of all these celebration there something missing, my eyes are trying to find my Shahl, as she happens to be miles apart, ears all eager to her melodious voice, hands eager to take her hand in mine, lots of crunchy , crispy chocolates, pastries, vanilla, a cup of sizzling coffee, some mind blowing Chinese dishes prepared exlcusively for me. so in other words all i can say is I am missing her a lot. The gleam of happiness is still missing in me though i am in different mood. All i can do is sit with my fingers crossed waiting to see few more months to pass seeing my Shahl tying a knot when ever day would be my V day.

I am a relieved man now ..........

As i jot down something in my Blog, I feel the most relieved person on this earth. As if the I have unloaded by some unknown weight put on me. I often define a person to be rich is by his or her thought, and to add something more the most informed person could be cited out to be a wealthy man on this planet. Sunday is free from whole lot stress one gets at workplace. My day starts and ends up with a call to Shahl. While talking to Shahl I could discover how much do we resemble in our thoughts and practise. Perhaps these days the more I explore her the more do I fall in love sweet nature and a wonderful persona. As our conversation for the day navigated she enlisted the reason of opting me her soul mate. She vouched all my traits which comes secondary to millions whose life is just tied up in making and chasing few more bucks in life. Life is a blend of exploring our instincts, shelling out from self centred acts & coming out in flying colors on other's expectations. And that's what make my Shahl score points on others. Therez how she is such a face in a crowd who could think beyond the female stereotype desire like wardrobe collection etc.
She made my day, how much do i feel relieved my Shahl is perfectly tailored as how i visualised my would be wife to be. Axiom heard long back, marriages made in heaven seems turning true now. Allah knows his created beings in and out and well aware of our whims and fancies. Shahl in my life is the proof of His mercy and wisdom as how He brought two alike souls together. Furthermore in my discussion with her i told her, " you know Shahl, at time I used to be frustrated of thinking whether i would get a wife of my choice", to which she replied, " Allah knows His job and He is perfect in carrying out His things", how true !. Now i regret for being pessimist , certainly a Muslim never loses his hope, coz Allah has kept the best in our destiny. So being negative in my thoughts I was really unthankful to my Lord who is indeed so merciful.
I never hesitate in confessing that I just keep learning from my Shahl. The more I know her the more I learn from her sensible & matured persona. Learning never stops with completion of any course, said Einstein long back, what if you learn lessons that even wives could be good teachers. Indeed I owe a lot to my Lord who has gifted me Shahl in my life. Thanks a million to Him coz I am too choosy person and getting a wife like Shahl as per my dreams sound still incredible.

My Shahl is simple awesome

How do I define my Shahl is often my dilemma,
Have ample of adjectives but still sounds more of less as an enigma.
She is as beautiful within as she appears,
Jovial, exuberant, sweet & all time favorite to people dwelling far and near.
She shaped her selves in a mould of blending & helping people in & out,
After all she is a good psychologist or an ace counselor which is no doubt.
She preaches what she practices & practice what all she preach,
Thus have lessons of love, affection, peace, tranquility which she often flourish.
She is always there at your call,
Regardless of the person being big or small.
By being loved by all she has whole lot of feather in her cap,
Of being an obedient child, a loving & caring sister, a supporting friend seen committed always at every mishap.
Fortunate are the one is in her surrounding,
As they are blessed by a sweet natured & sensible person called Shahl who is simply outstanding.
Words or phrases could hardly do justice to her personality,
Volumes could be written on her life, character & attribute of serenity.

Finally Shahl logged-in in my life ... A recap

It was soaring temperature in the midst of summmers at my Home town popularly known as Orange city. I was just sitting idle with not much work at my office busy trying some crazy websites at my Comp, and with no one intersting to chat at my Messenger. While trying some rooms at Yahoo messenger, i just happen to notice an interesting ID, shahla_nigar logging into some room at Yahoo. So with a message, Hi wana chat ? thus commenced an unending friendship of ours. With increasing chat & seldom phone calls our session of knowing and exploring eachother carried forward. As we turned good friends we had all good reasons to increase our number of calls thus eliminating our chat session over the internet. I vividly remember those long hours of discussion over the phone anything and everything under the sun and over the moon. The more i talked to her the more i got conviced about her sensible and sober nature. Thus giving all reasons to get inclined towards her persona compelling me to open my mouth to go ahead in relationship.

Finally, it was Nov 21st 2005, when i colllected all my courage and said, "Shahl, we are have been good friends & have a very good understanding, what if we come together". She smiled but didnt replied to the posed message. It took a while to take these words seriously, but as time passed she was rather compelled to give a thought on this formal proposal. hence we decided to meet before we could really work out to go ahead in life. It took couple of months to visit her place at Bihar, thanks to my busy schedule which really wreck some havoc in the midst for not meeting my commitment. But often such havoc proves great in life. So somewhere in the last week of Sept 06 i booked my tickets from Bombay all the way travelling to her place which took approximately 40 hours. I still remember it was a day with shower at her place and i was pretty nervous since it was my first meeting. The nervousness or fear remained till she appeared in Blue at the decided place trying to find me dialing my cell. My long tiresome journey to reach her place soon paid off as I sat accross her taking lunch and soon reminded her about my proposal to which she sighed and said, "man take ur time you are here for three days". But it was all decided and the ball was on her court, i was anxious to see her dealing the posed proposal of mine..

Thus after my return from a place life has taken a different shape, i was all focussed to workout things between me and her. I guess this was the most undigestable stuff for my parents the moment i shared with them, as they had whole lot of answered querries and apprehansion, like am i competent enough to take a wise descion (since i happen to be the youngest in my family), as how z the girl and her family, and that she is still from a far off place etc etc.... It took long or was really testing time for me to crack this case, with soon my sister and brother joining me convincing my Mom. Finally it got clicked and I could see things happenning in such a fashion that it sound that I am in a wonderland. Now things are a family affair, we could see both the family sitting together and in no time they declared our engagement this January. Often I scribble my head in utter shock as how a person met on net seems to be my wife in making. So with great expectation of having a journey orignating from net would hopefully has a good road ahead, where we would often cherish our memories of coming together.

Md Ziyaullah Khan

Pune